RavenDancer’s blog

Well, Monday seemed good enough i guess. I just sort of piddled around and chilled. Ate some pizza for dinner all that good stuff. The i woke up tuesday morning at 4am to food poisoning from said DEVIL pizza. Which lasted till around 7 in the morning (i didn't know we had that much liquid). Then i proceeded to try and get sleep seeing as i had an interview that day. Well i woke up eventually at 10 cuz i couldn't sleep since my stomach was still upset. Then my mom proceeded to try and make it so i could hold food. Around 12 i was feeling better ate some lunch (food kinda makes me nauseous, even now -__-) Then i took a shower and did my 2 hour drive to bburg for an interview.

The interview was ok i guess. The guy is a complete weirdo. He's grad student which i find hard to believe cuz he seemed really A.D.D. and spaced out half the time. During the interview he took phone calls and talked to his cats...o.O     Anyway, that lasted around 20-30 minutes then he said he'd call me back within a week or so. Which kind pissed Yoon off lol  *hugs yoon*  i love that girl.

I stole Yoon's key and went to the apt. Where i saw cute adorable OTTO!!!! played with him as i waited for ppl to get home lol  then ate with yoon at Taco Bell (we're cheap like that ;P) and then went to kroger where i bought some lime popcicles (soooo good). Then we watched Independence day on TV with Richard!! Good times~~

I like passed out at 10pm though lol  on the couch hahaha   Otto saw me and jumped on the couch where he curled up then rolled on his back and nuzzled my neck and passed out XD~~<3     Yoon said he just likes to cuddle ppl when they're sleep   I <3 Otto  lol    But yeah   that's how my week has been thus far. I now have a permanent stomach ache is all  =__=     and food kinda looks nasty to me   although fruit looks delicious. (i ate a bowl of strawberries *MUNCH*)   ^^

Now i'm waiting for the weekend where danny comes down. I was hoping to be in bburg so i could cuddle with him but i can't now -__-    i haven't seen my bf in month   no kisses, hugs, snuggles, cuddles,....it's very lonely here   nothing even to distract me. I need a job, friends here, some sort of f-ing purpose!!!!   I'm supposed to cook for him -__-;;;; hehehe   i might poison him  (whoops)  but yeah     we shall see

I hope everyone else is having a great week!!!!!  *hugs*  i miss everyone  a lot     please have better summer than me LOL

City of Bones (Mortal Instruments)

Cassandra Clare

Ok so, here's how it goes so far.
I might visit NOVA this weekend depending on my response from blacksburg and if i have a place to stay or not -__-. Anyway, I emailed the company Yoon works for (Music Lesson Central) to get a job. They responded and wanted my resume (unfortunately it's not impressive ;_;) and when i'd be available for an interview. Hopefully i'll get a response tomorrow. I'm hoping i get the job. Other wise i have no income this summer and i probably won't save up enough money for Hong Kong by next summer -__-.

So, on the other side. Mashi~s B-day is in one week. And i told him i'd cook him dinner. He doesn't know about this blog so i can post what i'm going to cook. I think i'll be cooking Chicken pasta and apple pie (from scratch even the crust) for dessert. My mom can cook and so can everyone else in my family....I'm hoping it carries  hahahaha

I hope i can go to NOVA this weekend. I miss everyone. Feeling friend and boyfriend deprived. I've had no friendly contact outside family since school let out T-T   man i wish i could find a job. Blacksburg would be perfect. And perfect doesn't happen so i'm probably outta luck. But i can hope for at least one more day! ^^

Also got chewed out by my sis. (the middle one) talked to her the other day all friendly. Mentioned i might move in with danny and some friends (like christie *if u need a place* and jon *cuz i'm about to kill his family for him*) and she had a litter of kittens. She said i shouldn't live with guys and that she didn't want to be preachy but i should care more unless i just wanted to 'give it up without a fight'. GOSH my family is so retarded. Makes me think of last christmas when i wore shorts and she called me a slut. Heaven forbid what happens when i do move in with Danny. Family will hit the fucking roof. O.O

Pan's Labyrinth (Single-Disc Edition)

Saw Pan's Labyrinth the other day as well. I found it intriguing. My sister (the oldest) said it was messed up but i actually thought it was rather interesting and the contrast of fairy tale and war next to each other. Definitely not the most uplifting movie but still good.

Marked: A House of Night Novel (House of Night)

PC Cast

Well, went to the dentist today and scheduled oral surgery for June 18th...right before my birthday *sigh* another great one i guess. Yesterday i went to the dermatologist and got moles shaved...not cut off just shaved....it's weird and i'm sore where they cut   can't sleep on my back  lol and i've gotten no calls from where i applied....it's gonna suck if i can't get a job. kinda down today. Not real sure why, just am. Didn't really get to talk to danny today maybe that's why. Interesting how that can effect my WHOLE day. the loser...has waaaaaay to much influence on me. *nod nod*

Well i cleaned and unpacked a little bit today....got rid of A LOT of clothing...so far. I hope to get rid of more. *crosses fingers* And i hope to get a job!!! for the love of all that's holy! *cries* T_T  Need job or else broke as shit which is NOT acceptable as far as i'm concerned. Otherwise i won't be able to visit NOVA and i'll go crazy down here...alone....at home...in the middle of nowhere....

this isn't supposed to be a bad picture. Just a pic saying goodbye too everyone that won't be at tech next year. It's just not gonna be the same without them. Hanna banana, Peter (shocking), Jon, Misono, etc...
It's going to be lonely next year...no doubt.

Goodbyewt

I feel so secluded out here. I'm not even in a city where i can go to cute shops or bakery's and have fun. I'm just here...alone. Looking for a job so i can go elsewhere and have fun. All i've done since getting home is read, look for a job, and go to doctors. -__-   I want to be with my friends  ANY FRIENDS i just want to be gone from here. I love my family really i do, just...I want to be somewhere where i can be me and not worry about offending or adhere-ing to others rules. I want to be on my own. Heaven help me when i am...i won't be able to find a job  -.-'''''      oh well....I guess everyone can't be successful. I'll just root others on i suppose.

I want an apt, maybe an animal and a good paying job for my future...is that so much? I don't know why i'm so frustrated. i guess i'll read some more...it's what i do best ^^

Ghost Walk (Mira)

SharedHeart

Guys are awesome because….

1. They've got that comfortable place on their shoulder that's perfect for snuggling into while we fall asleep.

2. They're at peace with their bodies, except for maybe some minor anxiety over height, weight, and baldness. (length)

3. They're enthusiastic about our bodies, even when we're not.

4. They fall in love so hard, once they finally fall.

5. Chest hair, forearm hair and the feel of a newly shaved cheek.

6. Bravery around spiders.

7. Their unapologetic lust for a nice hunk of beef or chocolate cake.

8. Their ability to solve problems simply by throwing a ball around. (destroying a computer)

9. The glimpse you get, when they wear their baseball cap backward of their inner Little Leaguer.

10. How tender they get when they cry, and how seldom they do it.

11. What they lack in talk, they tend to make up for in action.

12. They make excellent companions when driving through rough neighborhoods or walking past dark alleys.

13. They really love their moms. They remind us of our dads.

14. They don't mind accompanying a woman to a party even though she looks like a movie star and they look like the chauffeur.

15. Their near-endless appetite for discussing the ins and outs of work and money - ours as well as theirs.

16. Their genuine ardor for tinkering with toilets, changing oil and assembling gas grills - jobs any intelligent woman can do but would be nuts
to volunteer for.

17. They never care what their horoscope, their mother-in-law, nor the neighbors say.

18. They rarely lie about their age, their weight, or their clothing size.

19. How awestruck they are in the face of a homemade cookie.

20. How great their hands look holding ours.

21. Their face is a treasure to behold when they give us a present they picked out.

22. Their ignorance is usually amusing.

23. They have a great sense of competition.

25. Though they often try to hide it, they're very tenderhearted and caring.

26. They have an uncanny ability to look deeply into our eyes and connect with our heart, even when we don't want them to.

.....I didn't make this list. It was sent to me. But it's pretty accurate. *sigh* too bad most of them know it the losers =P. Oh well, I guess we deal with them anyway. *hugs*   cuz they're just that cute  >.<   

Well, rooming assignments aren't till mid May. Hopefully I'll get in the dorm i want. Life has been interesting. I've been home only a day and already rules are being forced on me again and my parents want me to conform. I plan on taking 19 credits next semester and i'm not sure i can handle it. But i have to graduate next year. And i don't know what to do afterwards. I don't know where it will take me.
So many ppl are graduating this year. It's going to be so lonely next year.....Hanna, Misono, Shan shan, Danny, Jon, Vince, Taka, Kayla, Peter, and so many others are gone.... I'm gonna miss all of them. They've always been there. What am i supposed to do when i don't see them any more? They're a security blanket. I nice place to go when i need comfort. I'll miss them so much.
I hope that I can handle VT next year. Not sure what they'll do with Norris. Not sure how i'll take my Russian classes knowing a friend won't be there anymore. Learn without her comments about it. Walk past Norris without thinking about how it was inside with the shots and screams. It's pointless to dwell though. They wouldn't want us too. They'd want us to fulfill our dreams and dance in the rain. Skip, parade, and laugh while we can. They knew so much more than we did. So much more. They were able to leave with a full life. Let's hope half of us can say the same.
Need to find a job....PRONTO
Needs the money to visit boy and friends in NOVA. Want to snuggle my bf and make me and him feel better. Maybe even plan about the future. Such happy thoughts..... It's so hard to be in a long distance relationship. We feel so many things but since we're not around each other enough we keep it to ourselves hoping it'll work itself out. *sigh*  I wish the world could be perfect for just one day.....